In July last year, I found out that my baby daddy was cheating on me, I think that was the hardest blow I had received at that time last year. You never move past a cheating man, especially if things were fine, or if to you, things were fine. I didn’t confide in anyone at that time because I was embarrassed, Ifreka was just 3 weeks, or less. I mean, 3 weeks old, we were supposed to be more in love, because we have the product of our love right before our eyes, he wasn’t supposed to be looking at another woman. After 7 weeks of trying to make it work, I packed my bags and left.
After a few weeks, I learnt that he was in a new relationship. I was more broken; it now hit me that I was going to be a single mother. I was ashamed of myself; I couldn’t come to terms with it. I told myself, I have accepted it, I said it in my mind, and not my heart. A month later, we talked it out and we decided to try it again, I failed, miserably. I was excited about making things better, building our family and making it complete. What I didn’t know was I had now come to the point where I had ACTUALLY accepted that I was a single mother.
This is what happened; I met a friend- an online friend- Facebook to be exact. We started talking before we got back together with my baby daddy, and when I moved in, I got to know that if only I gave myself the opportunity to receive love elsewhere I would have healed earlier. Thing is, the society has made being a wife to a man who was/ is already married, or dating a man other than your baby daddy sound so disgraceful. That is why we are having women raising sweet kids all alone, because they have believed that they are not worthy of love.
I wish I gave myself the opportunity to experience love again, I probably wouldn’t have gotten into this relationship again, and I wouldn’t probably feel like I am cheating on my baby daddy. I found a guy who I had not known for long, but was a parent too, and knew what I needed. How I wish my baby daddy would listen to me the way he first did when he saw me the first day. I fell out of love when I got back into this relationship, how ironical.
Well, this is a thread on relationships so please stay, I will share more tomorrow!